What have I been up to lately???

LOTS and LOTS of Paperwork...

Chuck applied for a Teaching Job in the Army up North at Camp Williams...and in order for him to get the job he has to pass a Background Security Check...that means going back 7 Years and listing all sorts of information...You can't see in this picture very well but in front of me was stacks of papers...so when the Boys would go to bed I would start on paperwork...he is up at Camp Williams now and has started working there but we don't know yet if he actually has the job...he is working on a temporary basis right now...and if he does get the job it is still a temporary job but it could turn permanent but probably not for a year or so...but I look at it as a foot in the door so that he can move up in the Army like he wants...keep him in your prayers that he will be able to do what he needs to and that he will be safe and taken care of...

Thanks Everyone...

WARNING!!!

WARNING:

This post is a little personal and not usually what I would talk about but I want people to know that this is real...that people deal with this condition more than we know...so be prepared to hear me sort of vent and get personal...

When we made our trip up to Salt Lake in December to see Gary and Brittney we had a lot of fun...when we got there Brittney was crocheting a blanket for her friend and it looked like fun...I had attempted crocheting before by buying a starter kit and could never get it started and so I gave up...but Brittney decided to help me and it was SO EASY...I am absolutely in love with crocheting now...it is a big stress reliver for me and I am so grateful that Brittney taught me to Crochet and that she was so patient with me and for getting me addicted...

And Thanks to Gary and Brittney for that week we spent with them because they really got to see me with my kids and it helped SO MUCH for them to tell me that I was a completely normal parent..and they gave me such confidence that everything was going to be fine and that I was doing a good job at being a Mom...

I haven't really told a lot of people about my situation lately because I haven't wanted people to think I am weak or that I am crazy or that I am lying or faking or anything...and so a lot of people don't know what is going on but I have came to terms with my situation and I know now that things will get better and that it doesn't matter what people think of me...
with this last baby I had a really hard time after he got here...I couldn't put my finger on it but I just knew something was wrong...I knew that something was wrong with Me but I just didn't know what...and my sweet husband could tell that something was wrong but he just didn't know what was wrong or what to do...and I finally opened up to my Mom and she took me to the Doctor right away...

I have been suffering from Postpartum Depression since this last baby... 

 we have a history of it in our family and when I had Odin I didn't have any of the symptoms and so when I had Cort and everything turned up side down for me it was hard to admit that I needed help and that something was wrong...I kept telling my self that something can't be wrong...that I have to be perfect and have everything in control and can't let anyone see me weak but that has all changed now...

I now can admit that Postpartum is a REAL thing and that it doesn't make a person weak or any less better than anyone else...I have now realized that it really doesn't matter what people think of me...I try so hard to put up this perfect image for certain people because I think it will make them like me better but really these people will probably never truly like me and I don't need them to like me...I don't care if they think that this makes me a weak person or that it is an excuse for certain things...Postpartum doesn't change who I am or how I feel...

This experience has helped Chuck and I become closer and on the same page...it used to be that he was the calm one and I was the very outspoken one and now roles have changed and I have decided to try and take a step back in certain situations and he has stepped up and protected me and put people in their places...Chuck is so not a confrontational person but since this has all happened he has been forced into that type of person in order to protect me and his boys and I love that he takes care of us...

I definately couldn't go through this by myself and I am so Thankful to My Side of the family who knows how REAL Postpartum is...

and I am Thankful for Gary and Brittney for understanding me and constantly telling me that I am doing a good job and that I am completely normal...

and I am Thankful for my Sweetie-Chuck-for being so patient with me...this has not been easy for him by all means but he has stepped up to the plate in more than one way and has taken care of me and protected me...this is far from over but we are in this together forever and ever...some days are harder than others but I know it will all get better...

So again Thanks Brittney for teaching me to Crochet...it truly helps me with my stress levels and keeps me cool...and I love it...Thanks Bunches....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Good Morning

 Cort is usually Standing up and starts to squeal with excitement when I open the door and Odin is usually pretty happy to be out of his room and he wants cartoons and chocolate milk and most mornings his Daddy...in this picture he is telling me ow that the light is hurting his eyes...he says the light is hurting his eyes even if I turn it off...such a silly little man...

Comparison Pictures

Here are a few more Comparison Pictures of the Boys...

Such Dang Cute Boys!!!!

 

What is Stetson Cort up too?

This little man is just such a good boy...I am really blessed to have such wonderful boys in my life...but Stetson Cort is just a Happy Camper 99.9 percent of the time...his Smile just melts your heart...

He is just a movin' and groovin' these days...he has master crawling and he is SUPER FAST...we can't turn our heads for a second...he tries to climb everything too...it is all to fast for me but I can't slow him down...

 (This is him in the kitchen...he likes it in there because he can try and find stuff on the floor and he can pull open the drawers)

(I sure wish I was small enough to fit under the dishwasher...he doesn't like it under there because he bumps his head but if you pull him out he crawls right under again...we can't win)

He loves being in his Walker because then he can chase Odin in it and get his revenge by running him over...it works like a charm because usually Odin yells at him to stop and cries...and the times that it doesn't work Odin runs for another toy and decides to play Bumper Cars with Cort...

Cort LOVES to follow me around and he will pull himself up to a standing position holding onto my legs...and cry until I pick him up...this can make getting stuff done REALLY hard...I try to tell myself that he won't always want me and enjoy it but sometimes I just want a minute without him in my arms or following me...such a Mama's Boy...

What is Odin up to these days...

Odin is just this silly little man...he makes me laugh with the many faces he makes at me all day...I wish I could catch them all in a photo but they are always so fast I miss them...

He is also learning to talk more and more...and this also makes him a very frustrated boy because we don't always understand him...so he is into yelling at me lately...it is really hard to tell him that yelling is not ok and that he needs to stay calm...lets just say he has been spending a lot of time in time-out...which seems to not even be working lately because he thinks time out is funny...so I will have to be changing that soon...

He also has very different personalities when it comes to his brother...one minute he will be nice to him and the next he is throwing him to the ground and practically beating on the poor kid...sometimes it is in play and I have to remind him that brother is still a little baby and doesn't have big muscles like him and other times Odin is really just being mean to him...

Odin has also been trying to stay up until 11 and then still fighting going to sleep at that time and then up at 6 or 7 the next morning-which then leads to one mean boy all day...so I started a definite bed time routine...it will have to change eventually but for now it is working...

Odin is also REALLY, REALLY into wrestling us lately...if we are down on the ground he for sure will coming running at you from out of the blue and tackle us and wrestle us to the ground...I think that is why he sometimes is so ruff with his brother, he is just trying to wrestle him and Cort can't really wrestle back...Here are a couple pictures of what he does to Chuck lately...it is pretty funny...Odin will actually lock his legs around Chucks neck and start to tighten them-all without Chuck telling him how-and Chuck has to basically "Tap Out" so he can breath again...it is HILARIOUS...

Odin is usually only in a diaper or underwear but when he does have anything else on it has lately been this Boots...he is in love with these boots and wants to wear them all the time and honestly it isn't always worth the fight to make him change...My Motto is "Choose your Battles"...so Yes this was a day that I didn't care...I was not going to fight hm and I took him to the store just like how he dressed himself-ok I did change his shorts to face the right direction, they were on backwards-but that is all I changed...

Odin is so dang cute when he is asleep...he always looks so peaceful and relaxed and I love it...I always want to kiss his little face when he is sleeping but I know it will wake him up and then he wouldn't be too cute...

And then there is always Odin's love for taking pictures...he is hilarious when it comes to taking the camera and wanting to take pictures...we were able to get him his own "Discovery Kids Camera" for Christmas for a WAY good deal...I would never pay 80 dollars for a kids camera but for 20 dollars (which really we only paid 10 dollars cash and the other 10 dollars was Kohls Cash) it was a good investment...pictures from his camera to come later...

 

 

Christmas Day....

We spent Christmas Day at My Parents house...We usually go between both sides of the Family but my Brother and his family were here from Arizona and we hardly ever get to see them since the economy is so Great and all...so as soon as we knew they were for sure coming for Christmas-which was months earlier-we had promised to spend the whole day with them...so no running around this year...it was a lot of fun to see them and get to spend a whole day with them...we wish they lived closer but we will take what we can get...

here are the pictures from Christmas Day...

We Opened Christmas Presents at our House first thing in the Morning...

We have to Thank a Special Person-who knows who she is-because without her and her generosity we wouldn't have had Christmas Presents for the boys-she truly was an answer to our prayers and words will never express how Grateful we are for her...

and Thanks to family Members that had Kohls Cash we were able to buy a couple New Gifts for them...

Overall we have always had small Christmases because the boys are young and they don't really get into the hype of it all and we hope to keep it that way...we want them to know what Christmas is all about...My New Favorite Saying at Christmas Time:

It isn't about Presents but about His Presence!!!

That is what we want our boys to remember...

 

 (On Odin's First Christmas we got him a BB Gun and we have all the Grandparents that are alive sign it and then Odin has a gun with their signature on it for his whole life...so this was Cort's First Christmas and we did the same for him...)

Christmas at My Parents House...

 

This was My Grandparents at My Moms house...they were so tired...it was cute to see them sleep like this...they are twinners...

and when they woke up we told Grandma that they were sleeping the same way and she said no they weren't and look Grandma here is the proof...sure love ya...

 

Christmas Eve...

Well Christmas Eve is always a BLAST with our Family...it is when we have our big Party and remember what Christmas is all about...Here are the Highlights and there are LOTS...Enjoy!!!!

Of course there is the Food...YUMMY!!!!

 Then the just plain Crazy Fun we always have...

 

 

Then there is the White Elephant Game...we look forward to the Crazy and Cute stuff people bring...

Then the ALWAYS important Live Nativity...the kids love acting out the Scripture Story and it helps remind us what the season is all about...

 

All of the Memmott Girls were there-which was a surprise because we didn't know Tisha was going to make it and she surprised us...so of course they have to do their family pictures...

 

Here is the Whole Clan of family who attended the Christmas Eve Party...we were only missing a few people...it was lots of fun...

And back in the day when I had Odin and there were a ton of other babies born right along together we would take pictures of them all together...but we haven't done it forever...so I had the idea to try and get some of the ones that were at Christmas...My child did not want to corporate and then Bridger didn't want to corporate...so we just make due with what we got...

 (this is previous years of some pictures...)

 

(and this was at Christmas Eve...)

And of course the kids wanted to take pictures so here is some of their Great Photography Skills...

 

 

  Some Pictures of my Dang Cute Boy-Stetson Cort...

On the e-mail that was sent out to inform all the family about the Christmas Eve Party Plan it was announced that Grandpa Memmott would be showing off his tattoos...He got tattoos when he went in for his Chemo and Radiation, so he was going to show off his new tats...every year there is something crazy that Grandpa or Grandma are going to do but it doesn't ever really happen...but this year we were all in for a real treat...

Yep that is my REBEL Grandparents get all kinds of Tattoos...Such Silly's are they...

And then here are just some extra pictures of some of the fun that goes on when we all get together...I sure love my Family and the Great Examples that they all are to me...Love You All...